On This Day July 26, 2019
That's what my son said to me.
I was talking about going through the process of having cancer, the cancer treatment and losing my hair. He said: "But you're beating it Ma, don't even call it cancer, call it something else." I thought about it for a minute and thought "ancer" not "cancer".
I was talking about going through the process of having cancer, the cancer treatment and losing my hair. He said: "But you're beating it Ma, don't even call it cancer, call it something else." I thought about it for a minute and thought "ancer" not "cancer".
Honestly if I get my head right it could be the "answer" to a renewed life.
A bump in the road that requires downtime and self reflection.
A bump in the road that requires downtime and self reflection.
After being off work for two weeks I know:
- I'm use to being busy everyday and all day
- I don't like down time
- I have to keep busy
- Lying in bed too long gives me a headache
- I'm still waking up at 5 a.m. so it's not a shocker when I go back to work
- Retirement at 59 1/2 seems stupid to me now
- You have to have a game plan to be productive for yourself
- You could stay on line half the day if you're not careful
- There is so much to do around the house
- I still hate television, even Net Flicks
- Shopping seems senseless and a waste of time and money
- Time is precious
- People matter
- Life without people is lonely
- 2:30 p.m. is like a magical hour because that's when my son comes home and we talk
- My son loves me
- Not everybody will be there for you when you need them
- Life goes on
- A house is not a home
- Junk stifles you
- Work is a distraction
- I'm happy for a break in the routine
- Health is the first wealth
- The Old Testament Bible is brutal but interesting
- I have more clothes than I ever would wear
- The amount of stuff I have is ridiculous
- Meditation has paid off for me
- I need to make good use of this down time
- Staying germ free means alot of hand washing
- Wearing a wig gives me a headache
- I never lived in the house before, it was go-go-go, sleep, get dressed, eat out
- I've talked to my son more in the last two months than in the three years since I've been home
- I've lived my life like a business - striving, planning, doing, going - and what has it gotten me?
- Life is not about tomorrow it's about right now
- There might not be a tomorrow for real
- You have to live like you're dying tomorrow and make the best of today
- There is an ultimate power that is in control, believe it
- You are not in control of circumstances, be okay with it
- Cancer is a disease that can kill you but doesn't have to
- Cancer is a wake up call about life and living and love
- I'm thankful that I have another day to soften my heart, mind, eyes and outlook on life...not be so hard on myself and others...people are doing the best they can
- Other people are lost in the matrix
- I was lost in the matrix
- There is a matrix
- There is an end to every life
- I like blogging
- Chemo can kill the tumor and all the other junk inside my body and mind
- I'm thankful that Chemo is working and the tumor is almost gone now
- It has been a struggle just not to be angry about something everyday (I've been surprised about that)
- I still think holding the "play-away" electronic books in my bra where the tumor grew was the reason I got cancer
- Sitting in the house is not that bad, embrace it
- Throwing away unnecessary stuff is a great thing
- I haven't cooked in so long that most of my spices are old
- Life is not about stuff but love
- Listen to people, really listen to them
- Remember those who texted me even when they didn't have to...never forget
So, how do I make this time the answer for the rest of my life?
I'll keep on Marie Kondo"ing" each room, reading the entire bible, learning to really cook, blogging and most importantly asking to know God's Name and yielding to the plan for my life.